Things are changing in this world. I am changing. I feel it especially now that I take a leadership role. I take things now in a different perspective where I always consider the welfare of everyone from students and to the people I lead. I am grateful for what is happening to me, and I think I am ready for it.
I am ready!
There are things that I need to change in myself. It is a holistic thing. I need to be ready to think and find solutions and make recommendations for better delivery of tasks and activities. One thing that I need to change is my mindset. I have this mindset that I can do everything and anything however I need to change that to the mindset of delegation. I am fortunate to have people that are thinkers and doers. They are outspoken and I like it. I think of my job as a team leader of managers. They are leaders where they need someone to have a confirmation and support.
I think of my job as a team leader.
Another thing I need to change is my patience. I always want results however to have a quality work, it requires time to process. I am reactive now I am learning to be proactive in a sense or mantra that is "things will be done". Patience is there when you are prepared and have the guiding principle of that you know your outcome for the organization.
...things will be done.
Mindset and patience are the things that I am learning. The things that I unlearn are the polarity of it. In a way, the magic of learning has its two sides. You need to know both sides of the spectrum of knowledge then you will understand the sense of it. After that wisdom will exist.
Find yourself is a journey that has no definite destination.
I am doing a lot of things lately and these are big things for me and people around me. In short, these are all responsibilities. I am having fun with these things. I just got a sense that its purpose or sense has no bearing unless it is in the moment. This make me realize my sense as a being. I felt that I have no sense unless the moment of urgency happen. I am nothing.
How to be nothing?
You are not an option.
Not an option is ok! You are just there just to go with the flow and make time flies. It will be a concern if you want something to happen, but if not then it is ok not to be an option. Me as a being that wants something to happen, I do not have a chance to be an option. In a cliche statement "no choice nalang".
You are needed if things are messy
This is what I usual expect in my life now. I am a definite choice when things are messy (meaning my problema na or magulo na). I see it as natural to me to solve problems yet everytime that things are complex I am being chosen to do it and most of the time I am the "no choice". I do not know what to feel yet I know there is something wrong or an opportunity.
You can discard anytime
This is the time you will not be counted in a circle because you are nothing. You will not be included in the plan. In the situation that you are there in a circle, you are either given a over the top treatment so you will not be in sync, or you will not have any info of what is happening.
You are unworthy if you achieve things
Achieving things are great things, but being nothing is just a simply saying that you do not deserve anything. The world is challenging you of what you want. This is true. In my environment where there are so many imbalance "things" that is happening, achieving something is not a laurel that you can be proud because as a person that is nothing, it doesn't have a value.
You are a wallflower.
I cannot be over the top or under the standard. Nothing is like a zero in a number line. No value however it exists to find the sense of where others are. I am nothing which is a zero.
I might be sad while I am writing this one yet I am positive that I can change this state of being nothing. No destination as of now yet I believe I can have a value in this journey. In reality, zero is a value. I just need to find my significance in this moment.
I don't know how to start this however I think this would help me. I am not ok however I can handle it so far. I want to contextualized this in all aspect of my life. For the past months, I have this sense in my mind that my self - worth is nothing. I encountered a lot experiences that makes me disapponted. I believe this just a phase however it turns out a very long phase for me. I just need to write these things in my mind.
Being me is Difficult
Ang hirap maging ako. May mga desisyon ako sa buhay na nag - define na kung sino ako. I am socialable pero panget ata work ethics ko. Masyado ata akong by the book at ideal. Di ko kaya ang pulitika. Palaban ako pero pag di maganda ang playing ground, kahit talo keri lang basta wag lang mawala prinsipyo.
I am difficult person however I know how to care for others. OA nga lang minsan. Pasensya na dun sa ka-OA-an ko ever. I know how to date however this country or this culture is not ready for my concept of dating (para kiligin ka naman habang binabasa). I have this experience na hindi kaya mag - commit sa akin. Alam ko na yun. I am indeed a difficult person.
Wala akong maasahan
This what I feel in life. Ako lang talaga. Di ko ata deserve na matulungan. Lagi kasi ako yung malakas. Ayaw ko yung di sigurado tapos lagi nalang ako naiiwan sa ere. Di ko rin gusto yun unfair yung labanan. Competitive ako, pero mahirap pag sistema ang kalaban mo. Ako nalang kaysa may madamay pa. Ayaw ko madisappoint kung may tutulong man.
Ang hirap maging ako kasi di ako pwede maging mahina. Ako yung aasahan. Nasanay na siguro ako na walang naasahan or tumutulong. Ayaw ko lang din na yung ginagawa ko ay nakaasa rin sa iba. I can do things however sometimes I need support. Yung support para kay Bebs di madaling makuha.
I am always the last option or the "no choice"
I am Bebs. Wala akong bilang. Pag sa panahon ng pilian hindi ako kasama sa options. Hindi ako priority. Sympre sasabihin magdemand ako, pero di ko deserve kasi ang counter naman pinahirapan naman ako. Life is unfair. Ito masayang observation ko, pag mahirap yung gawain or difficulty, ako lagi ang una dun. hindi option pero akin na yung mahirap. Pag pumalpak akin parin. Basta pag advantage di akin pero pag disadvantage sure yun.
I am ready for challenges, math kaya favorite ko. Ayaw ko lang sa nangyayari sa akin, ako yung pang difficult round lagi. Hindi naman ako napipili sa pag sa best option. Unfair ng mundo. Yung sa experience na di nag - commit, yes hindi po ako pinili kasi daming factors.
No Progress in Me
I work hard for everthing in my life. Trinabaho ko. Alam ko masipag ako pero unfair talaga ang mundo. I always make something new and prioritize improvement. Sa mga huling buwan, parang wala akong nakikitang progress sa akin. Samahan ko pa ng hirap ng ekonomiya ng Pilipinas. Nakakalungkot kasi may nakukuha naman tayong parangal pero underappreciated or wala talagang appreciation. Ang sama kaya ng loob ko. Kaya feeling ko kahit anong gawin ko, walang usad talaga.
Wala na akong gana. Salamat talaga malakas lang yung sense ko na magturo at yung commitment ko sa mga bata kaya nagwork pa ako. Isa pang dahilan ay alipin din ako ng salapi. Sa totoo lang, kung may chance na mabuhay nalang ng walang ginagawa, yun ang gusto ko. Since wala naman ako progress at apprecition.
Happiness/Joy is not Easy
You might see me that I am having a lot of good time. Yes it is fun yet I cannot say it is really real or very heartfelt. Siguro nawala na sa akin yung concept ng paano maging masaya. I am stuck with my life where I don't deserve happiness because it always remind me that after that moment I will be back to the battle ground that I am nothing. Yes, I see myself as nothing.
Excitement?
Since I am nothing, I don't find my life exciting. I am planner. Nakakatawa, di pa hinahanap sa akin meron na ako pagdating sa trabaho. Pag tinamad naman ako, tamad na tamad talaga. Nahihirapan ako makahanap ng motivation sa loob ko na magpatuloy. Sa totoo lang, no choice ako. If I stop, things will be chaotic (Feeling important lang or wala kasing ibang gagawa). Enduring these things in my life turns out to be so natural. Wala na akong sense of life. Di ko na alam paano ma excite. Bored na ako.
That is what I am thinking now. If you are reading this one, dont be sad for me. Kaya ko pa naman. I just need to write it here. Thank you for reading.
I will start writing a movie review of films I wacthed in cinemas, or streaming application. I will do it with a structure ever.
Structure of Review
Movie Profile
Ito yung part kung saan ibibigay ko yung facts about the movie. Pwede ring mga nice to know facts why I watched the film.
Story
This where I will discuss the plot. Hindi ko naman ikwento yung movie or magiging spoiler basta yung significant things or ideas na nakuha ko sa movie.
Acting
Ito yung part kung saan yung mga artista yung i - review ko ever. Kung magaling sila at bakit sila magaling dun sa film.
Technicals
Ito naman yung part kung saan dun tayo sa pagkagawa ng film. Like the setting (location), lights, music, effects and other sense na kung paano nabuo ang movie.
Take - Aways
Ito naman yung nakuha ko sa movie after panoorin.
Magbibigay ako ng ratings per part. Like rating scale from 1 to 5. Personal judgement ko naman ito kaya keri naman ever. Very random naman yung mga movie na ireview ko. My personal favorites are moview that are independently made. Sana magawa kong manood ng films. Namiss ko na manood sa sinehan ever.
Tuesday morning (August 30, 2022), check tayo email after ng 1st class ko then an email pop - up. Nagulat ako.
Subject ng Email na natanggap ko nung umaga
Mixed emotions because I did not expect to be accepted. Last day ng application ako nagpasa ng nomination at dun ko lang din ginawa yung content ng application. Alam ko medyo mahina yung portfolio ko ng pinasa kasi medyo kulang tayo sa elements na gusto nila makita pero nagpasa parin ako. Another thing, after ko magpasa nung application ay may natanggap ako ng email na medyo "nega" kasi may pinapa - edit sila ever. Hindi ko na ginawa yung pinapa - edit nila and I accepted na hindi ako matatanggap. Sabi sa response nila sa application wait lang sa week ng August 15, 2022. Wala ako natanggap na response nun at di na ako nag expect.
Ano ang rason?
Kailangan ko yun para sa sarili ko. I need a validation and confirmation kung nasa tamang landas pa ba ako at may saysay pa ba ang ginagawa ko. This program is a validation of my work as an educator for students and other educators. In the academe, where the career ladder is very limited for a simple teacher like me. I doing more than what I expected to me. I make my own path and show leadership. Leadership that I start in craft as a teacher in the classroom. I am making my class as engaging as much as possible. It required a lot of trial and error before to make an engaging and effective one. I believe the technology really help me with that. Seryoso, kung wala ang productivity tools ng Microsoft at kung di ako marunong magkalikot medyo mawawalan ako ng trick kung paano makuha ang mga students to be engaged. Sympre kasunod ng pagkakaroon ng mga strategies sa pagtuturo, ang kasunod ay magbahagi sa kapwa guro. I am thankful for my co - educators in the school where I teach because they gave me the opportunity to share.
It is not easy to share your practices to your fellow educators. There is a certain feeling that you are being tested for your validity and sense. It is a challenge yet that is also a motivation.
Madaldal ako. Maingay ako. Makulit ako.
That is me for most of the people however I have depth. I am critical especially when being a teacher is an issue. I love teaching and I love sharing what I am doing. It is my treasure or should I say "mayaman ako sa pagtuturo at di ko ikakayaman ang pagdadmot nito". It is natural to me to help my co - educators especially when pandemic happen. Ang inalala ko nung nagpandemic kung paano ko matutulungan yung mga kasama ko para makapagturo. Nandyan yung mga naging nanay ko sa school. I am very willing to extend time and resources just to help them. Iba ang labanan pag nasa classroom na ang mga teacher ngayong panahon ng pandemic. Technology is vital. It is not easy to learn how to transfrom your F2F teaching to full online teaching in a snap. It takes time ever.
I am thankful that my co - educators because they are very willing to learn from me. I am super kulit to them and make them a student again. Dahil dyan naging leader ako. Siguro dahil dun kaya masasabi ko expert nga ako. Mahirap patunayan kaya naghanap ako ng mag-validate sa ginagawa ko.
Apply ako para malaman kung may sense ba yung ginagawa ko. Salamat sa pagkakataon sa Microsoft.
You may check this for more information with the program: MIE Expert
Ang Application
Applying in this kind of program is exciting. The application is reflective in nature. It is a portfolio. I make a reflection for the past years while I am teaching in an online modality. Sa totoo lang, nag - enjoy ako sa challenges and sa experiences.
People think that I have the best equipment during the start of online class however I have a struggle on that. For the 1st half of that school year, I am teaching using my phone. It is super fun yet I reflected that I need to deliever it with optimal results. I am super happy because it made to do more things and critical in every move. I believe in productive struggles. It made me better holistically. I learn how to save and invest in right equipment. I started recording my teaching for easy delivery. I turn out to be a content creator in YouTube. Wala pa pong monitization. Masaya kasi it saves energy when teaching.
My take in my application is to showcase my body of work and its development. I always changed for the development of my craft. The pace might be different from time to time however I always changed how to make it develop. I always look on the problem. It is natural to me to be a problem - solver because my 1st love is Mathematics. I believe maximizing the resources with a little energy is working smart strategy. I believe the technology really help me to make it happen.
Enjoy lang kahit may hirap. Ang saya kaya may magawa ka then you will share it. Ayun ang naging sense sa akin nung application, ang mapakita yung ginawa ko. Hindi perfect yet may development. Reflective!
Ang saya ko ng mabasa ko na natanggap ako! It is my 3rd time to be in the program. I believe what I am doing now is valid, I am happy and motivated to do more. Microsoft's vision when I started with them is to make everyone to do more and be more. For me, it is not only about the Microsoft products however it is being human that is ready for the future that is open to posibilities that this world will be better.
I will celebrate this one. Being in the worldwide list is an honor and responsibity to my students, co - educators and my country. I living in the Philippines and I believe that there is a bright future. One of my inspirations why I am still teaching (in high school) is a short film created by Jerrold Tarog titled Faculty. You need to watch it as well to understand my inspiration.
Faculty by Jerrold Tarog
I am very happy. I am thankful for Jose Rizal University both administration and students for the opportunity to be creative and share my practices. This recognition is not possible without the community that support me. I am thankful as well with Micrsoft Education Philippines for the support. The brand was given/made naturally for me.
I am Bebs Ever. I am your MIE Expert for SY 2022 - 2023
It is official. I started teaching in an hybrid modality. What I felt is very fulfilling. I really prepared in my classes. My design primarily is to make my teaching session engaging. I really work out on the material or platform that I used which is Quizizz.
I enjoyed using Quizizz Lesson. The engagement is real. I saw it with my students both onsite and online. I created my 1st lesson for 8th graders and 10th graders using the Quizizz Lesson. For 8th graders I created the lesson introduction to factoring. There are 3 factoring lesson such as common factoring, difference of two square, and sum or difference of two cubes. For 10th graders, I created the lesson which is introduction to sequence. It has 3 lesson which are finding patterns, knowing the rule and general formula or term of a sequence
Be Prepare and have a back up plan in the execution.
It takes time to develop a Quizizz lesson. Teacher should have a strong content, pedagogical and technology knowledge. It is TPACK. I think the combination of the 3 should go hand in hand due to the concept of VUCA. Preparedness in classroom is a must not only in hybrid set - up. There are surprises that can happen anytime. Disruption is really happening due to different reason like climate change (we have class suspension in the middle of the week), political and a lot. Being prepared for disruption is more than preparing the material. I always believe that the teacher is the best tool to deliver a lesson.
Pop - up questions from time to time.
The Quizizz lesson is really engaging. The pop - up questions made it. I delivered my lesson in a way that formative assessment is happening. I am using the free subscription of Quizizz and it is more than enough to have a variety of questions and data gathering that I can make. In using Quizizz Lesson, one of the challenges is the connectivity of both onsite and online however I still believe that connectivity will be improve in the Philippines.
It is ok to have mistakes (Both for teachers and students)
Doing the pop - up questions are super nice. It is really game - based learning. In this way, me as a teacher can see 2 things. I can see what my students are learning and their challenges. Another things that I see is on how will I improve my teaching. Having mistakes in the delivery is ok and admit I admit it to my students. Students having mistakes are ok because I see how will I help them. The engagement turns out to be meaningful. In my 8th graders, I suggest them what are the topics that they need to study to improve their skills. Like when they have difficulty in common factoring they need to study divisibility and fundamentals of algebra. I turn out to be more diagnostic feels in teaching than a assessor for pass or fail.
Be Reflective
I am happy using Quizizz Lesson. It is challenging to make yet the results are real. It gives me participation for my students and realization in my teaching. It is really reflective on both users such as students and teachers. I believe I can do more when I use this platform. Tip: Get feedback with the students as well so you will know if you are doing good.
In my sense as a teacher, I see hybrid as a challenge to be future ready teacher. I am ready to face this challenge. Learning materials are vital element in my teaching. Quizizz makes it better. I will continue to do this teaching as long as the learning objectives are met and especially my students area gaining from it. It is a plus factor if they enjoy it.
Returning to work is something I don't like. I prefer doing work from home because it is comfortable and practical from a financial perspective however I know that my work requires me to be there in the physical sense. I contemplated and accepted that I will be returning to work. I know this will be different and exciting. The set-up will be a hybrid and that is something new to me.
Hybrid as a Combination
The school where I am teaching will be doing a Hybrid modality (We call it HyFlex.) in delivering the services. The hybrid that was made is a combination of Face to Face (F2F) and Online Modalities. It is a combination. 50% of students are in school and the other 50% is the virtual classroom (Zoom, MS Teams, or GMeet) but students have a choice of not attending in the physical classroom and choosing to be in the online set-up is why there is flex in HyFlex. I am excited with this one because I am challenged yet there is the idea in my mind that, is it going to be effective? are my students going to learn? is this the optimal set-up? and many more questions. I am positive that things will be challenging at first however as the hybrid modality is going I believe that I and other educators will get the system and will make best practices.
My Delivery
I plan my lessons in a way that I will do Flipped Teaching. This teaching strategy is like you gave the learning materials before the students came in the synchronous engagement and then making collaboration. This is under the discovery approach of Bruner. In my assessment, self - paced assessment will be done. I will let them do their assessment until Saturday at 5 pm. I would like to share my plan on how will I deliver my lesson. There are 3 phases in my plan:
Phase 1: Module Delivery
This is the phase where students will do the self-study of the materials I prepared in the learning management system (LMS). This is in the form of different digital tools from slides, videos, interactives, and many more.
Phase 2: Synchronous Engagement
This is the phase where understanding checking will be done. Primarily I will assess what students understand and not in the materials given to them. The activities that will be done in this phase will be depending on the understanding made by the learners. During this time, digital tools will be used in the concept of game-based learning (like I am going to use Kahoot Courses, Quizizz Lesson, and others), collaboration in problem-solving (Google Suites, Office 365, and Canva for Education), and reflective learning.
Phase 3: Support for Enrichment and Remediation
This phase is challenging because I will prepare at least 2 sets of activities. One activity is for the enrichment and the other one is for remediation. I know it is a challenge but technology might give me a chance to do this. I believe Khan Academy, Desmos lessons, and alike can help me and the students to do this one.
View as a Teacher
This will not be easy yet it is exciting. It is a cliche yet that is true. The world is now in the concept of VUCA (volatility, uncertainty, complexity, and ambiguity) which makes it difficult to make things move. It is an industry sense yet it is applicable in the education field. This hybrid or hyflex is the modality however the teacher's sense of delivery matters. The future is going towards digital transformation. It is not easy to teach in a way that is different from the way you learn. Adaptive learning should be the sense and core of this modality. It is not yet standard which is why teachers should make also a reflection on their teaching. I am writing this blog in the sense that I want to share what works in my class and what is not.
It is uncertain for teachers to be proactive in the hybrid or hyflex modality due to political issues like DepEd Order no. 34 s. 2022, internet connectivity and student engagement. My view with this one is to make a strong stand on what is the delivery modality for each school that can sustain the majority of the factors in the delivery. Internet connection is one of the challenges. Engagement of students is also a challenge due to multifactorial reasons like personal, readiness, comprehension, and many more.
My take on these uncertainties is to make it an opportunity to be a better educator. I know it is difficult yet solutions can be made from the grassroots level which is inside the classroom. I am making my class as organic as possible. I set my classes where I make my students respond to their learning. When I did my orientation I gave them the idea that I want them to be professional students. The counter responsibility should be given to them. I am teaching middle school (Junior High School) and it is an opportunity for me as an educator to build work - ethics for them. I want them to take their education with a sense of ownership. It is also difficult for students however I believe the teachers should make them understand that life is not easy and that finding a solution is the pinnacle of learning mathematics which is solving problems and difficulties. Enjoying the productive struggles is also in my classroom.
My Mantra
I will enjoy teaching because I see that it is an opportunity for me to grow as a person as a professional. It is not only for myself but for my students and the country. However I need a raise in my salary so I can get more coffee so I will not do what is in the picture.
