Find yourself is a journey that has no definite destination.
I am doing a lot of things lately and these are big things for me and people around me. In short, these are all responsibilities. I am having fun with these things. I just got a sense that its purpose or sense has no bearing unless it is in the moment. This make me realize my sense as a being. I felt that I have no sense unless the moment of urgency happen. I am nothing.
How to be nothing?
- You are not an option.
Not an option is ok! You are just there just to go with the flow and make time flies. It will be a concern if you want something to happen, but if not then it is ok not to be an option. Me as a being that wants something to happen, I do not have a chance to be an option. In a cliche statement "no choice nalang".
- You are needed if things are messy
This is what I usual expect in my life now. I am a definite choice when things are messy (meaning my problema na or magulo na). I see it as natural to me to solve problems yet everytime that things are complex I am being chosen to do it and most of the time I am the "no choice". I do not know what to feel yet I know there is something wrong or an opportunity.
- You can discard anytime
This is the time you will not be counted in a circle because you are nothing. You will not be included in the plan. In the situation that you are there in a circle, you are either given a over the top treatment so you will not be in sync, or you will not have any info of what is happening.
- You are unworthy if you achieve things
Achieving things are great things, but being nothing is just a simply saying that you do not deserve anything. The world is challenging you of what you want. This is true. In my environment where there are so many imbalance "things" that is happening, achieving something is not a laurel that you can be proud because as a person that is nothing, it doesn't have a value.
- You are a wallflower.
I cannot be over the top or under the standard. Nothing is like a zero in a number line. No value however it exists to find the sense of where others are. I am nothing which is a zero.
I might be sad while I am writing this one yet I am positive that I can change this state of being nothing. No destination as of now yet I believe I can have a value in this journey. In reality, zero is a value. I just need to find my significance in this moment.
That is Bebs Ever Tots
